“How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes. I struggle to find any truth in your lies. and now my heart stumbles on things I don’t know, my weakness I feel, I must finally show. Lend me your hand and we’ll conquer them all, but lend me your heart and I’ll just let you fall. Lend me your eyes I can change what you see, but your soul you must keep totally free. Awake my soul. In these bodies we will live. In these bodies we will die. Where you invest your love, you invest your life.” —Mumford and Sons, Awake My SoulThis is a song that really hits home to me. It perfectly explains how I have been feeling lately. To me, this song represents a person’s inability to last in a serious relationship, due to the fact that they can’t make up their mind. In a sense, I cannot make up my mind. No matter how much I say I do not want to be in a relationship, I know that ultimately it is what I want. But anytime I get anywhere close to having that, I get scared and run away. I know that running away will not solve my problems, but sometimes, I cannot help it. I’m sick of playing games with people, I feel like many people try to take advantage of me. This song means a lot to me, and I feel it is helping me cope with these problems I am facing. The lyrics help me facilitate my own self advice. Ultimately, I know I’m very weak and I am working on becoming stronger.

“How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes. I struggle to find any truth in your lies. and now my heart stumbles on things I don’t know, my weakness I feel, I must finally show. Lend me your hand and we’ll conquer them all, but lend me your heart and I’ll just let you fall. Lend me your eyes I can change what you see, but your soul you must keep totally free. Awake my soul. In these bodies we will live. In these bodies we will die. Where you invest your love, you invest your life.” —Mumford and Sons, Awake My Soul

This is a song that really hits home to me. It perfectly explains how I have been feeling lately. To me, this song represents a person’s inability to last in a serious relationship, due to the fact that they can’t make up their mind. In a sense, I cannot make up my mind. No matter how much I say I do not want to be in a relationship, I know that ultimately it is what I want. But anytime I get anywhere close to having that, I get scared and run away. I know that running away will not solve my problems, but sometimes, I cannot help it. I’m sick of playing games with people, I feel like many people try to take advantage of me. This song means a lot to me, and I feel it is helping me cope with these problems I am facing. The lyrics help me facilitate my own self advice.

Ultimately, I know I’m very weak and I am working on becoming stronger.

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I think everything about a person can be defined by looking at a picture of a tree. What? A tree? Yes, and here is what I see when I look at a tree. To me, a tree symbolizes everything we are as people. 

The roots of the tree represent everything that cannot be seen just by looking at a person. Everything you keep secret, things you do not put on public display, thoughts, memories, everything that makes you who you are that no one can see. Nobody knows how deep the roots go, nobody knows every little thing about you.

The trunk is the strongest part of the tree. The trunk is what keeps you moving, up and going every day.

Branches and leaves. This is everything superficial, everything that people can tell by looking at you or what you tell people. Your looks, your actions, your style, your words, your friends, your family, your characteristics, habits you develop. Branches are not permanent.

Bird, birds come and go from the tree. Birds, in relation to a tree, represent the people in your life that come and go as they please. the acquaintances you have, the people that talk to you but don’t stick around for long. But some of them do stick around. There is an exception to every rule. Some birds will stay and creates nests. Each nest can represent the true group of friends you have, or even the family you create with someone. 

If someone rips off a branch, it is not going to kill you, you can still exist, but you need to find a way of coping. Leaves change, they go through cycles the same way a person does. Leaves sort of represent every phase in life you go through. They may fall off and go away, but more leaves will grow.

I could go on about this forever. Which is why when everyone asks “why do you have that tattoo” I hate it. Because first of all, it means a lot. It is part of who I am. It has meaning. And I do not open up to everyone. It’s like exposing myself, a big part of who I am. So I developed this blog to briefly explain the reasoning behind my tattoo.

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This picture is a quote from the song “Not now” by Blink 182. It would have to be my favorite Blink song of all time. I can really relate to it!I’m posting this to express how incredibly excited I am that I get to see Blink 182 play at Fall Frenzy on September 30th! It’s also great that I get to see Jimmy Eat World and Matt & Kim. 28 days until the show and counting! I really am super excited :):):) I think I’ve said ‘excited’ like three times now :)

This picture is a quote from the song “Not now” by Blink 182. It would have to be my favorite Blink song of all time. I can really relate to it!

I’m posting this to express how incredibly excited I am that I get to see Blink 182 play at Fall Frenzy on September 30th! It’s also great that I get to see Jimmy Eat World and Matt & Kim. 28 days until the show and counting! I really am super excited :):):) I think I’ve said ‘excited’ like three times now :)

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Trendy Cancer Awareness

So I recently received a message regarding breast cancer awareness on Facebook. This is something that personally irritates me beyond belief.


The deal behind the chain message is to only share the secret with FEMALES. All FEMALES should then post a facebook status for all of your friends to see, saying something like “6 weeks and I’m craving candy” to spark people’s attention. Then when they ask why you posted that.. YOU DON’T TELL THEM WHY. The message says this:

Ok pretty ladies, it’s that time of year again, in support of breast cancer awareness!! Remember last year so many people took part that it made national news and, the constant updating of status reminded everyone why we’re doing this and helped raise awareness!! Do NOT tell any males what the status’ mean, keep them guessing!! And please copy and paste (in a message )this to all your female friends to see if we can make a bigge…r fuss this year than last year!!! I did my part… now YOUR turn!

The idea is to choose the month you were born and the day you w ere born. Pass this on to the girls only and lets see how far it reaches around. The last one about the bra went round allovr the world. So you’ll write… I’m (your birth month) weeks and I’m craving (your birth date)!!! as your status.


Example: Feb 14th= I’m 2 weeks and craving Choclolate mints!!

January-1week
Febuary-2weeks
March-3weeks
April-4weeks
May-6weeksm
June-8weeks
July-10weeks
August-12weeks
September-13weeks
October-14weeks
November-16weeks
December-18weeks
 
Days of the month: 1-Skittles 2-Starburst 3-Kit-Kat 4-M&M’s 5-Galaxy 6-Crunchie 7-Dairy Milk 8-Lollipop 9-Peanut Butter Cups 10-Meat Balls 11-Twizzlers 12-Bubble Gum 13-Hershey’s Kisses 14-Chocolate Mints 15-Twix 16-Resse’s Fastbreak 17-Fudge 18-Cherry Jello 19-Milkyway 20-Pickels 21-Creme Eggs 22-Skittles 23-Gummy Bears 24-Gummy Worms 25-Strawberry Pop Tarts 26-Starburst 27-Mini Eggs 28-Kit-Kat Chunkie 29-Double Chocolate Chip Chrunchy Cookies 30-Smarties 31-Chocolate Cake

Will someone please RIDDLE ME as to why you would post a status to RAISE AWARENESS AND SUPPORT and then not tell people what it represents.You didn’t care yesterday about posting a status to support breast cancer or lung cancer or any of that. The truth is, you didn’t care about showing your support until everyone else decided to post a facebook status about it. It isn’t funny or cute. And why only once a year? Why not every day?


Why don’t you show REAL support for cancer? My Aunt Linda died of Lung cancer, and I didn’t post a status telling everyone I was pregnant to raise awareness and then not tell them that that is what it is for. My family & I, instead decided to host a 5K Run/Walk to show our support for out loved one that lost a tragic battle.


So how about you stop following those trends. Get off your couch and DO SOMETHING. or even stay on your couch. Find a non profit cancer research organization and donate to them. Donate a dollar, donate 5, donate anything. But I promise you, your facebook status didn’t do much.

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Imaginary Friends.

Today I finished the second week of my EMT class. The class has turned out to be more of a challenge than I expected, but it keeps me busy for sure. The class is definitely an enjoyable one. My instructor is hilarious and keeps us entertained for sure. But one thing that entirely becomes a distraction is..

Binky.
I do not know the real name of this particular individual. This guy is something else. Now, I’m not one to usually, publicly, make fun of or judge others. but this is just a funny story. I do not know if this guy has some kind of mental disability, schizophrenia, or if he is just weird. On the first day of class, ourinstructor instanlty named him Binky, which he hates. This name was derived from the last name “Binkowski”. When our teacher began to call him Binky, he made it clear that he preferred the name “Kow”. And Mr. Ed just replied, “Okay, I’ll call you Binky”. That it how it has been from there out.

Now, I used to sit next to this guy, but quickly moved seats after witnessing some of the following things he does. First, he consistantly is talking to himself. Never aloud, but talks to himself, or people in his mind. I would always look over and see him mouthing words to no one but himself. Second, last Thursday we were taking a test in class when Binky picks up his test and leans back in his chair. Two people behind him almost immediately started laughing, and I could not quite understand what was so funny about the matter until I see him flip his test around. He had been holding his test UPSIDE DOWN staring at for for about a good minute. He continued the process of flipping his test up and down for about five minutes. Third, he removes his hat, and puts it back on every couple minutes consistantly though the class.

This last Tuesday, I moved seats. Found myself a comfortable new seat next to my new friend Jared! Now sitting a couple rows behind Binky, I noticed him wearing his shirt, inside-out. A collared, polo shirt. Inside-out. How do you not notice that?

And finally, today we were taking a break after going over our tests. A majority of our class was sitting out in the lobby of the building scattered around just talking. I turn to look at Binky as two people sitting at my table start laughing. Sure enough, he is almost, boxing with himself, or as I call them, his imaginary friends. Almost as if he were hitting a speed bag very slowly.

Anyways, I do not know what is going on with him, but something’s up.

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